There’s not enough of me for God

I’m trying to press in closer to God this week, this holy week, but I’m finding there is not enough of me to contain God—and the problem is I want all of Him. I feel the burn, I feel His presence and it seems the more I press in the hungrier I get.

Can a person have frustrated peace? I mean, I come out of it with total peace, but there is a level of frustration where I want more. Tonight it occurred to me that He needs to increase my capacity in order for me to host that much of His presence. I thought of this scripture from Isaiah that churches often use to build on and enlarge:

“Sing, O barren,
      You who have not borne!
      Break forth into singing, and cry aloud,
      You who have not labored with child!
      For more are the children of the desolate
      Than the children of the married woman,” says the LORD.
       “ Enlarge the place of your tent,
      And let them stretch out the curtains of your dwellings;
      Do not spare;
      Lengthen your cords,
      And strengthen your stakes.
       For you shall expand to the right and to the left,
      And your descendants will inherit the nations,
      And make the desolate cities inhabited.

My prayer is: “Lord, stretch out my curtains and spare nothing. Lengthen my cords and strengthen my stakes. Expand me from the right and to the left—Lord increase my capacity to receive more of you, more of your presence and your glory.”